Minnesota here I am :)

I graduate from Job Corps and now I’m at advanced trainging in Minnesota :) I’m having the best time here so far. I met some really awesome people here. There’s so much in my life that has happened that I haven’t been able to put on tumblr and it makes me so sad cuz I love Tumblr soooo much and I miss it sooooooooooo much more. I can’t wait until I’m done with advanced training and I move. The first thing I want to do is get a laptop so I can be on…guess….TUMBLR :)

Anywho, I love this place. And that’s the update until next time :)

Bye everyone xD

My moms ex ruins everything -_-

You know your life is horrible when you can’t spend a calm weekend at home. Why did he come back? Everything was fine before he came back. I have a big day tomorrow and this ugly son of a bitch had to make tonight stressful.

I wouldn’t wish my life on my worst enemy -_-

Updates and such

I’ve missed tumblr so so very much. I’ve been away at school so its impossible for me to be able to update my blog. I’ve had my first interview for advanced training and so far everything is going well. On Monday a few other job corps girls and I are going to a seminar for women where we’ll be discussing our experience in job corps and what job corps has done for us. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about my future and I’m so excited to see what life has in store for me next. I’ve grown so much and I’m ready to be happy now. My mind keeps bringing me back to the past, such as past relationships and friendships and I’ve tried to resist thinking about those people but one of them just keeps poking around in my brain lol. I feel like if I told this person how I felt he wouldn’t completely understand what I want from him and he’d feel like I’m trying to do the same thing we always did but I want the complete opposite and now I’m rambling. Anyway, I’m going to be home until Monday night and I’m so happy to be back in my own bed for the weekend lol. Gosh I really missed tumblr..

I’ve been gone for quite some time..

I came back home for an internship (which I’m enjoying so much) and so far being home isn’t what I hoped it would be. My mom has a new boyfriend and he has two sons and they live with us now. I don’t have a problem with the boys but the father…now he’s disturbing. He’s always trying to hug me and kiss my cheek and it grosses me out. I’m not a trusting loving person and so for him to even touch me at all makes me want to flip out on him and cut his balls off. Harsh I know, but that’s something else about me that has changed since I’ve been gone. Apparently I no longer have emotions lmao. My ex told me that he feels like I’ve put up a brick wall and the truth is that I have. I personally feel like no one is worth my broken heart.

At the moment I’m just having fun with life. I plan on going to Minessota after I complete Job Corps. I’ll be on another job corps center but for TCU which is transportation training. Hopefully I don’t come back to New York, hopefully I can leave my entire life behind and start all over again with no baggage and no past. But the sad thing is, the past always comes back to haunt you. So my question is which part of my past will come back?

on my way back to school

had a pretty good weekend. i kinda wish i could stay home but i cant. i need to hurry up and complete -_-

Sometimes I feel like its really hard for certain people to see me happy

Too bad bitches.
:)

I promise you mom..we’re moving up and out. Just give me some time and I promise all your wishes will come true.

Happy birthday to me :)

Today I’m 18 :)

I’ve been away for a while

I’ve been trying to download the tumblr app but my phone doesn’t seem to want to be nice to me. So instead I downloaded a different tumblr app. At least I wont be away anymore.

Irene didn’t effect me much

Except for the fact that I couldn’t sleep -_-